Goodbye

I started this journey six years ago, to make a perfect family with me, myself and my kids. Some people are meant to be alone, without a companion. I consider myself lucky because I’ve got my kids. You and I have come a long way since we met. With you I have found a side of me that I didn’t realize existed… experienced things beyond my imagination. Because of you I have come to understand myself better and thus become a better person. But this is as far as we go, it is time to say goodbye and walk our different paths. But before we part, I just want to say… “Thank you, for the wonderful time and experiences you gave me… I will always cherish the moments we shared together. Goodbye!”

It takes two…

It takes two to take a piece

It takes two to make a peace

It takes two to do a snap

It takes two to do a clap

It takes two to work a friendship

It takes two to work a relationship

It takes two to make a wife

It takes two to make a life

It takes two… And it goes on…

No wonder God makes it all in pairs

And its all too clear, why we should be a pair

I just wish..!!

“I wish to get away on my birthday!!!”

Heheh.. WISHES… fantasies!! Some things in life still remain a fantasy. Not that I’m not happy with what I’ve got. God has been really generous on me… loving family, wonderful kids, nice job, I’d say… “THANK YOU GOD!!” But even with all that, one can’t help wishing for something “extra” once in a while, something to liven your spirit eyy…? It happens to me every year when my birthday’s near. I always wish someone would take me away to an oasis where I could just be myself and enjoy the beauty of god’s creativity. Walking along the shore, smooth waves reaching out to my feet, stars smiling down and cool breeze blowing away my wig… (oops!! spoiled fantasy..kekek). Of course I could always get away by myself, but its not the same when you’re with someone else… someone to share the moments…, spoil the moments…, go wild… and… do whatever with … ;)

Aahh!! I just wish…!!

I wonder what it all means…!

I was on my way home from school, but I wasn’t wearing a uniform. A lady walked up to me with a dress, said she’s made it for me. I looked at her and thought to myself, “this has happened before”, the same lady has come to me with the same dress the previous day. I looked around me, it was the same location, the same mosque, and I remembered; a mountain was going to rise from behind the wall opposite the mosque… and there’s going to be disaster. I ran home to warn my family and get them to warn others. I ran back to the location, looked up and saw a huge moon on a blue sky. It has risen from the north, and with one swift movement went to set from the south. I was horrified…is this the end? I looked at the amused faces around me. They were all staring at the mountain that has risen from behind the wall; it was erupting ice-cream out of it, just as it was supposed to… and the children were playing ice balls with it. I started shouting, trying to warn everyone of what was to come, that the place was going to flood with high tide water. But no one took any notice; they were astounded by the ice-cream volcano. But where was he? I need to find him. I ran down a tunnel and up the stairs from where water has already started flowing in. I stumbled in to the water which was at knees high. I called out his name several times “Where are you?” Then, I heard his voice… calling out for me. I turned and saw his half bald head going down in to the water, his hand reaching out above it. He was drowning… in knees high water? My heart skipped a beat, horrified, and reached for his hand to pull him up. He grabbed my hand and lifted his head, looked me straight in the eyes and said “Serendipity” with an ironic smile, then gave up his grip and sank deep into the water. “No!”… I cried out..!!!

I lay frozen on the bed, arms reaching out, mouth in a gasp, and eyes wide open in horror. What was that all about? I don’t usually have nightmares or dreams, but when I do, they pretty much make sense… but this one’s pathetic… doesn’t make any sense at all. I wonder what it all means? ...!

Quit with the daydreams, girl !!

Keeping me busy is what I do best. Although I don’t over work myself, I always find something to keep me occupied. With two projects to run back to back, the academic yearend workload of all four work stations to conclude, kids and family to attend to… I still find me lost in myself these days. Something is definitely not right… but I can’t seem to put my finger on exactly what. Maybe if I gave it more thoughts as to what it is that is keeping my mind off routine, I might be able to attend to the matter and get me back on the track. Hmmm that’s exactly what I need to do!! Speaking of which… what am I blogging this for?? I should be working not blogging!!! That’s it girl, quit with the daydreams and get back to work, pronto!!

Very Mixed Salad

A mixed salad to compliment any meal

Salad
01 bud lettuce of your choice - hand shredded
01 stick celery - washed and cut in slices
01 yellow bell pepper – cut in stripes
01 red bell pepper – cut in stripes
Black pitted olives - halved
Green pitted olives - halved
01 block salad cheese – cut in cubes(optional)

Dressing
01 tsp vinegar
01 tsp virgin olive oil
01 tsp mustard sauce
Pinch of salt and white pepper

Whisk together all the ingredients of dressing till creamy. Place all salad ingredients in a bowl. Pour the dressing and toss together.

I like this salad because it colorfully decorates the dining table and is a great appetite booster anytime… enjoy!!

I don’t miss YOU… I miss our relationship!

All my life, I’ve always laughed at the thought of love. I remember the endless hours spent with my friends trying to reason them out of their lost love depressions. I always teased them and made fun of them. Why? I’d never known what it was like to love someone and to lose that love… till now!! They say love is blind… now I know why. They say people come into each others' lives for a reason… now I know why.

You came into my life to make me realize true love. To make me understand what its’ like to be in love and be loved in return. With you, I realized what its like to love someone you can never keep. We both fell for each other blindly, knowing there was a decade between us that can never be crossed over. Our journey was destined towards a dead end and we both knew we will have to take our own paths at some point.

I remember the day you told me you had found your soul mate… I was happy for you, but at the same time, I felt a sharp stab in my chest… a stab so painful I didn’t even feel the tears that drooped down my cheeks. That was the most horrific feeling I’d ever felt in my life… and that was when I realized just how much you meant to me, how much I loved you and how much I needed you. But I knew it was time to be strong and let you go… you deserved better. For weeks I struggled to fight the painful clutches of lost love depression.

Now, here I am… alone… walking along an open highway… many faces come and go, I hardly remember them. And if you ask me if I still love you… I’d say yes, I still love you and wish you well. If you ask me if I’d ever let myself fall for someone else… I’d say yes, if anyone can make me feel the way you did, give me the love, attention and care you gave, I will let myself fall again. But if you ask me if I still missed you… I’d say… NO! I don’t miss YOU... I miss our relationship!