Where have all the good guys gone…?

Feel so heavy inside… want to burst out, but cant. It’s been a long time since I burst out openly, or dumped my garbage onto someone. Tonight I feel like doing just that. But who to chose victim, who should I call? I’m never good at pouring myself out, need someone with patience and tactful enough to dig me out. But where to find such a friend? Where have all the good guys gone?

Yes, I long for you now…!!!

I wish they’d stop bothering me for now and let me just lie down here. Let me forget today to wakeup tomorrow. My eyes feel so heavy… like I was stoned, can’t even feel my fingers taping on the keyboard. It’s as if my mind has lost connection with the rest of my body. I know I have ignored you for a long time. But I’m here now, I wish you’d come to me now. Hold me close, take me in the clouds. Engulf me in your sweetness … make me vanish from existence. Yes, I long for you now…my angel of sleep!!!

Let me do my laundry in my own time…!!!

I am disappointed tonight. I don’t like it when people do things for me… things that I’d rather do myself. Yes, I do neglect my personal chores at times, but only with reasonable cause. Its not that I don’t want to do them, but their time is still to come in my schedule. I’m a fulltime mom, a fulltime employee and a fulltime student, and if not for my well managed schedule, none of these roles could have flourished the way they have in the past two years. I do keep a time and space for each and every task at hand, especially when it comes to my kids. I may not be a perfect mother, but I certainly do everything I can for them. The time I spare for them, doing their chores, are the times most valuable to me. And I don’t like it when someone steals those moments from me. So please… let me do my laundry in my own time…!!!

When temptation strikes, run away … don't lose the fight to the devil!!!

All temptation is linked to what you think on. It is important to control your thoughts, in order to control temptation. This is a simple but profound truth. It’s the reason most people fall into temptation. Think on the wrong things long enough, and sooner or later you will fall into sin when tempted.

Knowing your true identity and to be able to identify right from wrong, is one of the greatest defenses you can possibly have against temptation. When you were a kid, how many times were you dared to do something stupid? The real issue wasn’t whether or not you could do it but whether you were “afraid” to do it. And sad to say, many of us took the dare and did something that hurt us or shamed us just to prove that we weren’t. All we really succeeded in proving was that we feared their disapproval so much that we were willing to do the Wrong. The truly fearless response would have been to walk away; secure in who we were, earning their respect through character rather than performance.

Which reminds me of the story of Yusuf (the Prophet) and of the time he experienced temptation when he was approached by Potiphar's wife. She was up for it (by 'it' I mean sex) and was willing to do anything to get it! But being a man, Yusuf would have found it very difficult to say 'no' to Potiphar's wife. So what did he do? He ran away. He didn't put his moral strengths to the test, nor did he waste time trying to politely work his way through a very sticky situation...he just got out of there as fast as his legs could carry him and ultimately, he did the right thing.

It’s also important to understand that all temptation is rooted in selfishness. Every single temptation is packaged in the form of lust or the pride of life. Selfishness is always the favorite playground of the devil, and when selfishness rules in our lives, we open the door to the devils’ deceptive schemes.

So my friends, when temptation strikes your way; just turn around and walk away, get your self involved in something else, meditate if you have to... but don't loose the fight to the devil. Best practice is to pray and ask for guidance and God will meet your needs…!!!

Insha-Allah… I will find myself there someday!!!

I am going through a difficult time these days. An unexpected and frightful condition… I can’t explain it… I can’t describe it. If it is what I think it is… I know I have to be brave and accept it as a bitter fact and deal with the side effects with an open mind. Problem is… it would mean to kiss goodbye to some of my dreams… ones I had so much hoped for. And as scared as I am, I know it’s a phase every woman has to go through at a certain point in her life. For me… seems like it’s a bit early. But I am a believer and I do have a lot of faith. I have always believed that God has a beautiful life in store for me. Insha-Allah… I will find myself there someday!!!