I wont give it up for the world...!!!

Someone once told me that, no man in his rightful mind would want to commit to a mother of two kids... After nine years I realize how true those words are...

I'm a mother of two wonderful boys and that is a fact that is never going to change. Being a mother is what has made me the woman I am today and I am proud of the person I have become; responsible, energetic, caring, loving and more mature, and if men don't realize the beauty in it... I'd say, "to hell with them".

Being a single mom is tough, but I wont give it up for the world...!!!

No dirty socks to wash...!!!

Feeling very low and emotionally stressed. 48 hours and my phone hasn’t rung even once… makes you realize just how alone you are. Can’t help to wonder how my life is destined to be. Am I to grow old alone? Even the very thought gives me the shivers. I don’t want to be alone. There was a time when I was happy with my singleton and independence… but I never expected it to go on for so long. I’ve always wanted to share my life with someone special, to be with someone I can share my thoughts and feelings, to care for and be loved in return. I want to wake up in the mornings beside him, share breakfast … sneak in to his office in the afternoons just to steal a kiss… walk hand in hand in the evenings… and make love every night. Am I never to live such moments? Oh well... It has its advantages too... I don't have to wash his dirty socks... (grin)...!!!

I believe in yesterday…!!!

Hate… is an emotion I’ve learnt to reason with… or so I thought.

A couple of missed calls and threatening messages have brought all the anger and distress that I had buried away for so long to surface with no control or reasoning. Ten years of hatred is about to explode and the cause of it all is flashing in on me like a horror movie played in slow motion. Will I have the strength to control myself and reason with the present? Will I be able to forgive and forget? How do you forgive someone who doesn’t ask for forgiveness, instead threatens to cause you trouble? Should I still try to reason, or fight back? Either ways, I risk my babies to be dragged into circumstances I had worked so hard to avoid.

What comes to mind is part of the song “Yesterday” by Beatles

Yesterday,

All my troubles seemed so far away,

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

My words from quotes of an Icon...!!!

My platonic friend...!!!

A friend in need is a friend indeed. A saying we are all familiar with, but it is with you I understood the true meaning of “friend” and “friendship”. You’ve always been there when I needed someone to talk to, go out with for coffee, shopping, rides.. etc. Now that you’re gone it feels kinda empty and lonely, especially on weekends. I miss you so much… my platonic friend…!!!

Sleeping like a baby...!!!

At first 2011 started out with a broken heart and a lot of emotional stress but then things turned around once the academic year started. Now I have a permanent job which is very exciting and keeping me on toes all day. With an occupying job, loving family and adoring kids, life is pretty much back to normal. I’ve also found a new recreation for my spare time, which is exhausting and entertaining at the same time. I can finally sleep like a baby in the nights…!!!

I'm back...!!!

Hey blog… I know I haven’t been here much lately. Its just that not much in my life has inspired me enough to come your way. But here I am again and I think am going to be here more often from now on… I’ve missed you lots, and I know you have missed me too ;) It’s good to be back…!!!