I believe in yesterday…!!!

Hate… is an emotion I’ve learnt to reason with… or so I thought.

A couple of missed calls and threatening messages have brought all the anger and distress that I had buried away for so long to surface with no control or reasoning. Ten years of hatred is about to explode and the cause of it all is flashing in on me like a horror movie played in slow motion. Will I have the strength to control myself and reason with the present? Will I be able to forgive and forget? How do you forgive someone who doesn’t ask for forgiveness, instead threatens to cause you trouble? Should I still try to reason, or fight back? Either ways, I risk my babies to be dragged into circumstances I had worked so hard to avoid.

What comes to mind is part of the song “Yesterday” by Beatles

Yesterday,

All my troubles seemed so far away,

Now it looks as though they're here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday.

My words from quotes of an Icon...!!!

My platonic friend...!!!

A friend in need is a friend indeed. A saying we are all familiar with, but it is with you I understood the true meaning of “friend” and “friendship”. You’ve always been there when I needed someone to talk to, go out with for coffee, shopping, rides.. etc. Now that you’re gone it feels kinda empty and lonely, especially on weekends. I miss you so much… my platonic friend…!!!

Sleeping like a baby...!!!

At first 2011 started out with a broken heart and a lot of emotional stress but then things turned around once the academic year started. Now I have a permanent job which is very exciting and keeping me on toes all day. With an occupying job, loving family and adoring kids, life is pretty much back to normal. I’ve also found a new recreation for my spare time, which is exhausting and entertaining at the same time. I can finally sleep like a baby in the nights…!!!

I'm back...!!!

Hey blog… I know I haven’t been here much lately. Its just that not much in my life has inspired me enough to come your way. But here I am again and I think am going to be here more often from now on… I’ve missed you lots, and I know you have missed me too ;) It’s good to be back…!!!

Cursed to be Single for the rest of my life…?

24/7 of the week I am surrounded by tiny wee smiles in cute fittings with their nonstop demands for attention and cuddles. Oh their so adorable… I can’t help wishing for one of my own again. My boys love their wee cousins, its’ just overwhelming to watch them play big brother. I wonder how they’d feel about a baby brother or sister of their own… I bet they’d love it.

It’s true that I want to have another baby. Motherhood is such a wonderful feeling… its fascinating how the hormonal changes bring out a woman’s most hidden beauty to perfection. But I’m not sure if I’m willing to give up my single lifestyle. The thought of sharing my life with someone again gives me the creeps.

In all the years of my singleton I haven’t met any man worthy of my affection, enough to consider marriage. For me, it’s important to feel that I belong to him before I make a commitment. But none’s been able to trigger that in me yet. I know men find me attractive and it’s easy for them to fall in love with me… but for me it’s just not happening.

Am I never to fall in love? Is it a curse? Am I cursed to be single for the rest of my life…?

its time I changed my sheets...!!!

Its been a while since I've had the hearts for a change... familiarity has been most important. But ofcourse unless you try out new things, you miss out on the experiences. Yeah... maybe it is time for me to try out new things, make new friends, explore new environments. I shall start from whats most closest to me... its time to say good bye to the old sheets and start enjoying the new ones...!!!