A time to keep up with pace..!!!

Nearing the end of another semester, all the assignments and studies are piling up. This October seems hectic; an assignment is due like every other day. This semester has been different from others, with subjects that require a wide range of knowledge and practical intervention, also a considerable amount of research too. I have also made some very good friends whose knowledge on the subjects is unquestionable and practical. In the days ahead I’m going to have to spend as much time on studies as possible, and that would mean some very sleepless nights too. Never the less I’m up for the challenge and I know I’ll make it through, as always. It is time to get organized, and become more active…a time to keep up with pace..!!!

Time Changes All…!!!

I hate when things don't get done on time, but these couple of days, I've barely managed to complete any task on time. Every now and then I find myself sitting alone staring into nothingness. Though I’ve got lots of pending assignment that require a lot of my time, I am caught fiddling with my laptop, wasting my time on absolute nothing and without much interest too. What is wrong with me? I’m not able to concentrate on anything. Funny thing is, when I realize I’ve been distracted, I don’t remember what had distracted me or what I had been thinking about. It’s like I don’t know myself anymore…
I’m not sure what kind of a turn my life is about to take… but it certainly is taking a turn. I’m not yet able to figure out where I’m headed or if I’m going anywhere at all… should I be expecting the unexpected? One nerver knows ;) ... I guess I’ll just have to wait and find out. It’s probably just another phase in life… and like every other, this will pass too. It’s like they say… time changes all, and who knows it better than me…!!!

Reflecting Emotions…!!!

Many a times we have come here… it’s like we go in circles, round and round… only to end up in the same spot just where we started. These endeavors could go on forever, if you keep ignoring the reality. How long can you hide from yourself? How far can you run from your fears? It’s about time you stopped to appreciate the mystery behind our affections. What will it take for you to realize that it’s not me; it’s YOU… for my feelings for you are a reflection of what you feel for me…!!!

Who am I to you…???

Down by the beach, sitting on a rock… I wonder why I’m here. Small waves teasing the shore, sweet breeze swaying my hair… I wish you were here. It’s been 15 months and 8 days… a long wait indeed. Yet the same questions still turns in my head, unanswered. Here I wait for you… still for an answer. The past many months, I’ve missed being held, missed romance, missed being loved. But these few months I’ve only missed you… just you!! They say we love from our mind and soul… then why does it hurt, where there is the heart. I wish you were here now, to free me from this pain… just answer me one question… Who am I to you???

A Secret Admirer...?

A walk home from work,

I feel a gaze too strong to bear…
When turned around, there’s none to stare…

Who could it be?
Sweet messages on my phone, every minute of day,

to make me smile…
I check the number, it’s anonymous…

Who could it be?
And then… A dozen roses and a box of chocolate

in the basket of my bike…
with a note signed “SA". I wonder...

A Secret Admirer...?

Friends with benefits…???

In case you’re not familiar with the term, let me explain… it is an arrangement where a man and a woman behave like friends and have the benefits of physical intimacy. An arrangement for instant enjoyment without emotional attachments… probably an invention of a man in his utter selfishness!!!
I don’t understand why any woman would want to fall into such an arrangement, because the way I see it, there is nothing beneficial with intimacy without emotions or an undefined relationship. When a man says "Let’s be friends with benefits," what he's really saying is: "I'm selfish. I like having sex with you, but I don't care enough about you as a person or respect you enough to be your boyfriend." Just how mean is that? It's nothing more than a creative way of saying that he wants to keep his options open in case someone better comes along, isn’t it?
So why give importance to such a guy anyway, when you know you are far too fabulous to be some guys’ second choice eh? After all, everyone deserves to have a happy, healthy, fulfilling relationship…!!!

The heart sees what’s invisible to the eye…!!!

It’s nothing like how I expected, nor had I ever wanted to feel this way. After all the arrogant ignorance and confrontations I’m still not able to let go. Every time I tried, my heart would reason out with me with so many excuses for him. Why? He is nothing close to my portrait of desires and he has nothing worldly to offer me or me to him. Yet my heart seeks refuge in his affection. Why so…? Question is… should I let my heart rule over my mind and make myself vulnerable to emotions? For the heart sees what’s invisible to the eye…!!!