Loneliness sucks… (at times)!!

OK I admit… being alone sucks (at times). And tonight I realized that by all means. I just had an upsetting confrontation with my family and needed to get away. So I got on my bike and took off…only to realize I had no where to go and no one to hang out with or even call for a get away chat. Not that I didn’t have friends… got a lot of them. But at times like this you wish for someone closer than a friend, someone to cuddle up with… someone to forget all else with...

Oh well!! I guess there’s only one way to rid off this miserable feeling… cuddle up and sleep on it with hard rock music!! So, I’m off to bed… good night guys. I’ll be fine by morning… works all the time (smile)
Cheers!

I am definitely voting for Maumoon!!

Everyday I get several phone calls and messages, telling me to vote for Anni… and to that I have to say; sorry friends… I cannot vote for someone who is in this election only for his ego and to take up a personal grudge against Maumoon, and not because he wants to work for the best interest of this country. This he has publicly announced several times during this campaign. His only interest is in eliminating Maumoon, not presiding the country for its betterment.

We need a change… YES!! We definitely do!! But what better changes can we possibly expect from someone who gets played all the time by everyone around him, including his opponent? For my president, I want someone who knows how to play the game and how to play it right… and right now that someone is Maumoon, so I’m definitely voting for Maumoon!

Politics… a dirty mans game!!

One thing I have come to understand is that politics is a dirty mans game. People I know in the political circle, I have seen them change from friends to foes, heard their scheming plans, witnessed their dirty games. No wonder I hate politics!!

Tomorrow we vote for the next presidential election. Personally I am not in favor of any of the candidates. One thing is for certain, whoever comes into term will definitely make a difference, and at a time like this; when we are at the brink of a new law and order, I believe a change with a known devil is better than an unknown devil… for now!! Others, well… there’s always the next term for your scheming plans!!

VERY BERRY CHEESE CAKE

We all like cheesecakes don’t we???

Here’s one I tried this Ramadan. Its absolutely deeelicious!!! Actually I wanted to try it with fresh berries, but then, fresh blue berries were not available so I found this wonderful marmalade (fresh berries crushed and conserved) at Sosun Store, which complimented the recipe perfectly.

CRUST:
2 cups flour
1/2 cup caster sugar
1/2 cup (sweet) butter, softened
1 egg

1 ST LAYER:
500 g cream cheese, softened
1 teaspoon vanilla
1/2 cup caster sugar
3 eggs, room temperature

2 ND LAYER:
2 cup sour cream
4 tablespoons caster sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla

TOPPING:
2 cups blueberry marmalade
1 cup fresh strawberry (roughly chopped)

CRUST: Combine crust ingredients. Mix well; press onto bottom of 10" baking pan. Bake in preheated 400~ for 10-15 minutes. Reduce oven temperature to 350ºF.

1ST LAYER: Crumble cheese in large bowl. Add 1 tsp vanilla, 1 cup sugar and eggs; beat at high speed with electric mixer until blended and smooth, about 4 minutes. Pour over crust. Bake at 350ºF for 40 minutes until set (not completely firm). Remove from oven; cool 10 minutes.

2ND LAYER: Combine sour cream, sugar and vanilla. Spread over top of cheesecake. Bake at 350ºF for 5 minutes. Cool; spread berry topping over top. Refrigerate before serving.

TOPPING: Place blueberry marmalade in saucepan; cook lightly to make a thickened sauce, stir in chopped strawberries. Let cool; spread on cheesecake. Cool 1 hour then refrigerate.

Just wanted to share with you guys... cheers!!!

Déjà vu... Even without you!

Even without you…

Walking along the sidewalk, I see us holding hands

Shopping in the malls, I see us sharing likes and dislikes

Dining out, I feel your stare across the table

Partying with friends, I see us laughing and teasing

On the balcony, I see us sharing endless stories amusing each other

Working at my desk, I see you drawing tattoos on my arm

When tired, I feel you kiss my forehead, making me relax

In the shower, I feel your arms embrace me;

Your fingers exploring every inch of me

On the beach, I see us making love, under the stars

Walking in to my room I see a cold empty bed, yet I feel so content

For this déjà vu makes me feel sublime…

Even without you!

Leave me alone!!!

My life has been sabotaged by nonstop criticism of my relationship with myself. When my parents do it… I can understand. Family… I can handle, friends… I can get away with a chuckle. But what am I to do when all of ‘em come on to me at the same time?

It was my sons’ birthday party and all the family and friends were gathered. We were having a great time when all of a sudden the topic targeted towards me and my life as a single parent *hide face*. Now is that even a topic to discuss in public? I don’t think so!!!

What is so wrong with being single? I have had my share of courtship and affairs. Now, I’d rather spare my time and energy RAISING my men rather than be out FISHING for men. True, I do get lonely at times, I have my urges, my desires… but those are just feelings and they come and go, on and off, just like that… no big deal! There is no emotion that I can’t handle. I’m a big girl and I’m happy as I am. And if I wanted to get entangled again, I will… but for now, just leave me alone!!!

I will always be there…

I don’t hate you, I don’t blame you…
I know you too well, to be angry with you
I know you too well, to be upset by your words
Just because you go on your own way and act less emotional
Does not mean you do not care
I know you do…

I’ve heard your sobs, I’ve heard your cheers
I have seen the child in you, the real you…
The one you hide, from rest of the world
Though our time had been short, I understood you, inside out
Indeed I do...

I know your dreams, and they are big… too big; to tag along anyone (you think)
But I believe in your dreams, I believe in you…
Cos with your skills and inspirations, no dreams can be too big
And though I may not be there to share your masterpiece
My heart will always be there…
In your quest to make your dreams a reality
Take care!!